Jiwang kapak seorang primadona

So sad, I cry when I heard this song while I'm in the cinema for the New Moon movie.

I can feel you Isabella Swan, when Edward said he want a break up and said Bella is not good enough for him, its an automatic feeling in me which suddenly told to myself, hey I've been in that scene before, definitely no director and not on the big screen. The emptyness of soul when you know the fact that you'll lost somebody that you love too much is such a pain. You hate the pain but you hope for POSSIBILITY which is totally a crap sebenarnya. Not all people in this world get lucky with their path of life, some is just so easy and so lucky....but some it put thousands of sigh or maybe more.

To 'you' whom I already put away from this life for this half of year, I wish you goodluck and congrats for your coming new life ahead.

*okay I admit I dalam jiwang kapak retak mode, jgn pedulikan I ini yang sungguh primadona bimbo..ish memalukan..

Malam Ayam Awan Dania Yang Tak Berapa Nak Ada Ayamnya

You knowlah kan sekarang musim wedding, ramai date kenduri bertindih, being me I tak sampai hati, how I wish I could attend and share their happiness. Takpelah yang mana I tak dapat attend tu, I doakan dari jauh everything okay utk korang. This friend of mine, Hawa selagi boleh nak I ada gak kat wedding dia, pernah dia tgh on duty tah kat mana ceruk mana, call jugak I suruh dtg. But am so sorry babe I have to be at my brother's engagement on the same day. So nak elakkan rasa bersalah tu I planned to throw a hens nite for Hawa yang takdelah nak berapa hens pun sbb the fiancee and our guy friends join skali. I memang suka jadi party planner ni, making people happy give me satisfaction especially when they smile. Nak plan utk makcik Hawa awan dania ni mmg susah, kena tgk balik roster dia yg bulan-bulan dia sms I and confirm kan dengan cousin dia Deana. Deana help me a lot yah for this thanx much eh dear. So below few pictures with tersayang.

Cute kan the cuppies, made by my friend Agnes and her sister Audrey, if nak order you can go to her website www.itsy-bitsybites.blogspot.com, I suka sbb tak manis sangat.

I love all my friends, thank you for those who make it happened. So early congrats to both you Hawa and Farhan. Here is the clip I manage to capture while u both singing, thank you for being sporting especially Farhan hahhahah sebelum ni kalau lepak karaoke mengelat nak buka mulut nyanyi(sila terbalikkan laptop korang kalau nak tengok clip ni I tak reti nak rotate). Semoga kekal ke anak cucu and make babies a lot k to Farhan & Hawa!!

The Beezee Weekend

I had a beezee weekend!!!!!

Firstly on Saturday morning, I woke up quite early, after I done with my subuh pray, direct terus capai kunci Lolita and drive pergi Wangsa Maju for tennis session with Nina and Hanif the so called Tok Guru Tenis lah konon. Semangat ni padahal hujan rintik-rintik membasahi bumi di pagi hari kalau letak diri bawah comforter kan best tapi memikirkan badan ni lama dah tak buat aktiviti sihat so gagahkan jua. I dah lama tak sport so cepat sikit pancit, Tok Guru bising tapi anak-anak murid da memang gedik so cannot help lah Tok Guru. Kaki I pun da lebam and jalan dah jengket2 till now, its all your fault Tok Guru. Ahahahha tiba-tiba nak salahkan Tok Guru.

Then after tenis session g NZ Wangsa Maju and sumpah dah kot I tak gi mamak tu dah. Berlagak nak mampos, oh baru keje jadi mamak je ko da berlagak n wat muka kerek eh, tu belum Tuhan bagi ko jadi Presiden ke Perdana Menteri ke. Sampai I dgn Nina da jadi mamak kat situ gak kena amik sendiri order kitorang, what kind of service is that? Leh tak korang bayangkan and siap cakap masa nak bayar bil Nina salah, wah hebat nya awk bajet awk NZ so da tahap New Zealand lah. Apa lagi I yang berdiam diri daripada tadi terus bersuara meng'back up' Nina, terkedu terus mamak itu melihat kegarangan I yang membulatkan mata kepadanya..I have point to back up my friend. Korang bayangkan bil mamak tu kira RM 32 tapi bil sebenar bila kitorang kira-kira balik RM 28 je sebenarnya. Tulah korang lain kali g mamak ni jgn lah trust the amount yg kua dari mulut dorg yang kdg2 konon kira dgn gigih ni menggunakan pensel and kertas congak-congak pap pap pap dengan yakin annouce RM 32. RM5 k beza klu satu table dia dah untung sia2 mcm tu, korang bayangkan kalau 50 table? Sila congak sendiri dgn kalkulator atau sempoa. Its not bout kitorang berkira, but the honesty while doing business, kalau servis superb takpe tapi kalau order pon setengah jam baru mari, tak ke sakit jiwa?

Ok habis cerita mamak, I went back to Kelana Jaya, took a bath then take a nap. I woke up when Agnes call me and said my cupcakes order is ready. As promised we met at my chosen pick up point Jalan Telawi Bangsar. Lepak at Devi's for drinks, her sister Audrey pun ade skali and they show me the cupcakes. I suka gila exactly just like what I imagine. Thank you both dear and thank you jugak teman I buat trading for my semak samun eye brows, you heard me screaming. Ouuuuuuccchhhh!!!!

The raya haji

How is my raya haji?

I woke up quite early today, as usual prepare the breakfast for the family before we went to the mosque. Usually nasi himpit and kuah kacang mesti ada. Then me, Alia and abah went to the nearby mosque at Kelana Jaya for Raya Haji pray. Okay today I dgr takbir, hati sayu, tiba-tiba teringat last 2 years abah and mama went for haji and I as the eldest took the responsibilities from both of them to take care of my brother and sister, tough jugaklah nak jaga 2 adik ni sorang keras kepala and sorang lagi nak SPM lak, mana nak g keje, nak layan kepala sorang-sorang, merasa lah jadi mcm ibu tunggal (mencabar betul). I nangis kot pagi raya tu, pagi2 dengar suara mama and abah call all the way from Mekah, hati I sedih, thats the first raya without them but everything still manageable and under control. That time really make me realize how much you have to appreciate them during their existance. Ok dang!!! Cukuplah mengade2 dgn prasaan.

After done with the pray, gigih I ngan mama siapkan nasi tomato for lunch. We just spend our raya haji by makan-makan till perut nak letup, tdo ramai2 dpan tv, join abah tengok drama raya haji's at astro ria, enjoying the dinner with Prosperity Burger , semua adik beradik ada! Hey! lama dah kot tak mcm ni, Syaffiq always busy skrg ni so bila dia free kami happylah kan sbb dia suka buat lawak bangang. Then we had a meeting with the family bout next week event, Syaffiq's engagement, preparation ok dah...lelaki tak yah prepare sangat pun, senang betul jadi lelaki.

So today, mmg I betul2 had a quality time with the family, did my own laundry, kemas my room and make everything organized. Talking bout room, I da boring with my room deco, I need new concept but I cant do much since this is still government house, cant wait nak move out next year. I need a bright and retro concept, I have red in my mind now. We'll see bout it.

Ok peeps I gotta stop dancing on the keyboard I had a tennis date with Ozy and Nina tomorrow morning. Nite all.

I had a reason to smile now, I already watched New Moon. I didn't read the books since u can watch it on the big screen, so give me reason why you have to read. Cikgu Ilmu Biologi saya pernah berkata pemahaman melalui mata secara live adalah lebih kekal lama di dalam otak daripada membaca serta memudahkan imaginasi (okay time ni budak lelaki kelas sgt jahat fikir nak tgk benda lain..). Oh itu bukan alasan malas baca buku. Sekali lagi discotic bimbo.

Review cerita nantilah eh. Tapi I memang puas dpt tgk New Moon, rindu kat boyfriend I Edward Cullen terlepas sudah. Oh ramai yang kluar panggung jatuh cinta pada Jacob, tapi maaf saya tidak, kerana saya tidak suka lelaki berbadan ketak2 begitu, saya sukakan lelaki berbadan biasa seperti Cullen lagipun panahan mata Cullen telah mencuri hati saya sejak Twilight lagi.

Ok harus pergi ke dapur, ayam hampir masak. Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya Haji kepada semua muslimin.

The shower bathroom punya chenta baru

Tengok tajuk rasa menyampahkan, shower pon nak ada new love ahaha. Lempang cepat. Ok cukup. Last two days I was browsing for a shower creme at Watsons. Since I'll be out of station for a while, I need to find one which easy for me to carry and wont take too much space when I do my packing. While I was browsing, I saw these Olay shower creme range. I mcm eh, Olay ada shower creme? I tak tau pon. Oh mungkin kerana timbunan kerja yang banyak dan langganan majalah Cleo saya yang masih lagi berbalut dan tidak terbuka-buka lagi untuk dikhatamkan. Ok fine, saya loser di situ.

Sudah menjadi amalan atau habitat saya, before buying any shower products I will sniff on it cause I really had a scents issue, something you gotta know bout me, I'm not really into floral scents, I'm more to fruity or foody scents. You can check out all my parfums range it maybe fruity or sweet, floral mmg tiada. I sniffed all of it, oh my Dior, all smells so good, I could almost eat it! Rasa nak semua but jgnlah tamak halobakan itukan amalan syaitan carilah yg halal dan toyyibah serta memadai. The price is also value for money, not that expensive like Body Shop or Crabtree Evelyn body washes range, just good old value for money. Eh itu amalan yg mulia, haruslah sedar diri untuk menyimpan mulai skrg. So I decide to pick up one and have a try.

I chose this because it work to nourish and moisture your skin cause, lately my skin is a bit rough cause I rarely apply lotion because of the tight time. Pity skin =(. By the way, I love the scents too mcm bau peanut butter, nyum nyum. It remind me to my favourite body scrub from Body Shop, The Shea Butter scrub. I already used it and as a result, it make my skin smoother and it really moist my skin. It give me a fabulous showering experience, betullah weh I tak tipuhhhh!!! The best part is it leaves me and my bathroom smelling gorgeous for hours. Cant wait to buy another one, cepatlah habis!!! Oh tahukah anda mandi itu adalah hobi saya?

Hantaran anak Makcik Binah

Bilik I da bersepah, sampai nak lalu pun kena sopan je buka langkah kecil.

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What I'm up to? Selain daripada paperwork at the office, kejar event sana sini, (sigh esok g Terengganu lak). So here are some of the snap shots.

Tak cukup lantai nak letak, ini sebahagian je. Jangan speku I nak kahwin ok, lambat lagi I nak kahwin. Bagi menjawab persoalan kamu dan kamu ni bukan hantaran I tapi adik lelaki I si Syaffiq. Inilah kerja I..habis office hour I duduk diam2 depan TV sambil menonton Buletin Jam 8 serta menyaksikan abah membuat aksi kuak lentang di sofa kesukaannya. Abah pelik melihat I bersemangat waja memutar2 riben tapi tak penah nak offer nak tolong. Cubalah sesekali berkata 'wahai anakku, boleh kah ayahanda membantu?'.

Tema hantaran off white and silver colour theme (requested by Syaffiq n his girlfren, colour ni nampak mahal but a bit dull, so have to add up some kaler yang akan naikkan seri hantaran tu nanti). So I buat yang simple2 je, you all jgnlah imagine yang hebat-hebat. I masih mentah seperti budak baru belajar. Kalau bab2 menggubah bunga2, kotak2 ni I memang suka, dulu nilah task I masa keje kat Body Shop, I belajar gubah2 benda ni pelan2, benda2 ni kena sabar kalau tak sabar mmg tak jadi. Jgn korang ingat yang korang beli kat Body Shop kotak2 cantik itu da siap bungkus dari kilang itu semua hasil tangan Beauty Advisor yang kerja di situ ye kawan2.

Mula-mula mmg nak hantar kat orang tapi since my brother nye bajet tight sgt kak long redha tolong kamu sebab kesian. Lagipun buat hantaran sendiri mmg save bajet sgt, my brother just give me money and I'll do everything for him from buying those hantaran and gubah hantaran. He's too busy earning more money siang & malam. Takpe adikku, taste kakak ko mmg ko boleh percayai adikku, jgnlah kamu risau(oklah I mmg perasan di situ). Nama pun darah dagingku haruslah yang terbaik. Ahhahhahah jgnlah harap along nak bersusah payah mcm ni kalau kamu bukan darah daging ku. Sebagai balasan mohon belikan along parfum Flora by Gucci yang kamu beli untuk hantaran ini..auuuuwww.

Untuk hasil gubahan sila tunggu sehingga majlis selesai ye 5 December ni. Malu I..

Tenis date? Blueberrychizcake date? Bubur berlauk date..

Okeh hari itu I mengidam makan bubur lauk2 di Kg Baru selepas menonton gambaran bubur berlauk di blog FoxyFarah. Ye saya mudah terpengaruh, tetapi memang sedaplah pekena bubur panas di musim2 hujan ini kan? Penat dipikirin mau heret siapa ya? Akhirnya teringatkan nina yang telah lama bermastautin di Kg. Baru. Lama juga tidak ketemu. Jadinya terus dihantar khidmat pesanan ringkas ke telefon bimbitnya. waduh beliau menyambut ajakan ku dgn gembira skali.

Kami berjumpa di awal sore, kebetulan hari itu birthday Hanif pacarannya si nina. Konon mau bermain tenis tetapi hujan tidak mengizinkan kami lagipon banyak jejaka-jejaka, saya jadi malu untuk bermain. Surprise birthday adalah simple di court tenis.

Muka suci tanpa make up gigih menyalakan api lilin yang memakan tangan sendiri.

Blueberry Chizcake enak skali. Happy birthday anif, may Allah blessed you.

After the surprised party, me and nina kembali pada tujuan asal kami iaitu hunting for bubur berlauk. See...sedap nya. Rasa nak lagi lah.

Blissfull

Praise to God dengan nikmatnya, tak sangka masa flew away too fast. Happy news around me everywhere and anywhere. People ties the knot, having babies and live happily with their own life. I shared those moments together with them and be part of them. Being honoured? Yes itukan nikmat Tuhan utk dikongsi bersama. Now I can say my weekly routine now is attending my friends wedding. Oh you dont know how I LOVE WEDDINGS so much, the daise, the flowers, the dress, the hantaran decorations, the doorgifts and the foods, everything mcm dalam fairy tale yang menjadi kenyataan for the prince and princess. Beautiful kan???? For this year, few of my close friend ada yang dah bertunang and kahwin.

Firstly Zete, my bestfriend @ my munchkin. She's everything for me. Masa dia call I, said she's going to get engage with Deen after raya I feel like crying. Bukan menangis sedihlah but menangis happy coz we shared every single ups and downs in life together since matrics lagi although we both jauh from each other she's in JB I'm in KL, anything dalam hidup mesti update, and now she found her happiness. We used to be in the same boat and we're like sisters. I know it may sound lesbo but pedulilah kan, I love her to death, hurting her is like hurting me jugak. (I straight okay ahaha) Hope berpanjangan till jinjang pelamin.

Secondly, Hanis and Zool, both were my primary schoolmates. I feel glad and kagum, 7 tahun punya percintaan berakhir juga di jinjang pelamin, am happy. Lama sungguh kan? Alhamdulillah and I'm being honoured to be their bridesmaid, kali ni da masuk 7 times I jadi bridesmaid for wedding orang, banyakkan? Nah I dont mind cause like I said earlier I love weddings. Some more kawan dah lama so memang I takkan sampai hati nak tolak.

The wedding in Putrajaya sgt cantik, I love the pelamin and sepanjang karier I sebagai bridesmaid (cheh blh ke jadi career?) diorang ni couple yang paling senang sgt nak jaga although it involve protocol bagai.

Thirdly Hawa, ni pun kira kawan dah lama since primary school, she's getting married this December with Farhan. Cool couple. Lagi satu bestlah lepak ngan adik beradik Hawa ni jenis takde hal nye orang especially Deana, mak syg ko nyah. But unfortunately maybe I cant attend her wedding on the 5th December, girl..all the best to you. Jgn risau awan dania saya akn hadiahkan sesuatu utk kamu yg kamu takkan lupakan. Ngeeeee...Shhhhh.

Fourthly and lastly the lovable Udect, my neighbour time SAMURA. Jahat kat SAMURA tak nak kawan dgn I with alasan tak munasabah tapi now dia dah baik. I kagum tengok dia handle her wedding preparation she always wanted for the best. But its okay babe, you're a strong girl thats why u can survive. I doakan everything will be smooth and steady k. Insyaallah with Allah's will I'll be there on ur wedding day. Good luck my love.

Oh bila said about wedding kan, I pun da berangan how my wedding will be. Dari kecil I berangan nak kahwin dekat Carcosa Negara, (garden wedding theme) or kahwin dekat Bali (by the beach), small crowd pun takpe yg penting with the love one. My wedding dress plak I already had my own design in my mind but wajib veil je 5 kaki panjang, can u imagine that, so primadona. Thats my wedding dream, how bout yours?

Deaf please

How I wish I'm deaf now.

Tak perlu dengar apa org keliling mengata sekarang.

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